yeah!!!

happy happy happy...mon need to hand in assignment..that time i really scare that i wont score well..haha..

i counted myself lucky..my itp place from the beginning i not used to it..then i still have miting to attend..my first impression of my supervisor very scary..coz he seem very fierce..hahaha..but when time goes by actually he's a nice supervisor..from beginning i scoring B in logbook that time really abit disappointed but ltron i start to get A all e way..hahaha..actually i learned alot of thing from there that why from the beginning i very stress..hahaha..

not so bad working at there..my supervisor still let mi half day off every wed to let mi attend my diploma-plus..so i can go back to sch and c my club xiao guas and lecturers too..then last week my supervisor let me off half day for whole week except for thursday totally on leave for one day..for my cca sp star..so that time quite worry for my grading for e assignment..that time he still complain y i didnt come for thursday donno why he ask..maybe making fun or what..that time i really scare will affect my grade..

then on wed i saw the previous itp student who work at there..den i ask him how his grade for his 1st assignment then i get to know the grade he gt not very well..then that time increase my worry..but on thursday whn i get back my grade i damn happy..hehehe..god treat me well...in chinese..hahaha..


now i feel lucky for everithing i do..hehehe..i have a nice and gd bbi always that let mi bully..hehehe..den sp star also veri success..now left my last worry d-plus for this sem...hahaha..haven to my homework..

till my end of this sem i will taste of success after that i will focus back to my studies..do well in third year..yeah..active active active..i don't want my life in sp just as white as a paper..i want to enjoy and fill in as lot of color as i can..jia you

THE PAST

wahahha..2dae i feel so peaceful..but the for the past few day i really under a great depression..i donno why maybe itp,sp star and my diploma-plus..maybe now my itp is the i was worry about and the leave on thursday..which i don't wish to think now..

now i feel so peaceful now already settle sp star..overall though abit disappointed but not to my fellow frienz but on me..they did very well if don't have those ppl pulling us we sure can do a better and a perfect job..this time i just learn from it..really thank yl and every teams..pub,audio,food,performance,stage,logistic and our club xiao guas..

yeah i going MIA..wahaha..but till partcipating cs event and cultural event on the day i can make it..i really hate my itp land on sat too..really very tire..just rest for one day the next day work again..

recently i keep on think on my itp..maybe sp star and d-plus homework..i abit over worry because of taking one day leave it will affect my grade..haiz..now i don give a damn le..i just work hard..talking about the leave i also spend in school not go out have fun..even i sick i din go see doc..what he want me to do..really don know how school communicate with the company..

recently i don online le since my itp start..whenever i go home i just rest awhile and went bk to slp..i miss chatting with my frienz..but i was too tire to online..

right bloggy that time after sp star..i be follow my someone..and the someone is we can't see..i can feel that..but i can't see it and i also don't want to look at it..after that nite..on fri i totally under depression till ytd..if not my bbi telling was it the one follow me affecting mi..i also won't link it back to it..

tat day bbi keep on ask me what happen..i also don't know what going on..i just feel moodless and i abit irrtated by him keep on asking me what happen..then i vent anger on him..very sorry to my bbi..u r a nice guy..but i really don't know why..recently i keep on think i have a very good bf why sometime i still feel so empty..i don't know why..

my mood come back since 2dae..wahaha..just feel so peaceful..maybe downstair the song making me feel so peaceful..now my downstair having celebration for thank god ceremony..i don know which religion but the song really let me feel very peaceful..

k bloggy i tnk i going to do my log book le..take care and rest well..i don't know when i will blog again..

itp going on..

yeah itp start le..i being allocated at the warehouse...hahaha..actualli quite ok ba..coz i noe wat to do and gt interest in doing tt y..ytd i missed one dae work as i take my tp agn..till now then passed..no feeling actualli..coz alrdy numb..den 2dae argue with my mum agn..same usual thing she like to compare my life n my sis life..ya watever..hack care her..

haiz tnk nw i goin to work soon..learn new things..den my wearing can don wear formal..yeah..juz nd to wear cover shoes..hahahha..still alrite ba..but sat we also nd to work..sian..

cya bloggy..

OMG my blog....

haiz now my blog donno why changed to a format whr i cnt load pic and video..haiz..donno wat happen..actualli b4hand gt blog abt one post..but i save as draft..hahaha..yeah i rottin since last wk..now rottin for e second week..wahahaha..so sian..bbi still having exam..haiz..cnt disturb him..bbi jia you!!!wo jing shen shan zhi chi ni

he ah..still wanna come out celebrate..wth..hahaha..i told him le..e time we get together to mi is not impt le..as long as i hav him bside mi i don nd any celebration(dis wan i din tell him)..hahaha..but he insist to celebrate..hahaha..now waiting for him to finish his exams..to mi now i not so mind le..mayb due to past ba..i learn to chnange..although my bbi is a gd guy..but i now learning to b a gd gf to him..in e past to my ex i too demandin le..hahaha..so ppl nd to learn from their mistake ma..although i noe bbi don mind i being too demandin n bad to him..hahahhaha

den everitime i wake up frm nap..i will get emo..hahha..bbi noe my pattern..hahaha..i will kp on said sumthing to hurt him or wat..hahhaha..he said he used to it le..hahaha..i veri hard cn argue with him..coz he too hao ren le..i also cnt bear to argue wif him if not like i bullying him..wahahahha..donno leh to mi bbi is like sumone who can chat with..sumone who will stand by my side..sumone i can share my joy,my sadness..really appreciate wat he done for mi..but sumtime i kp on give him prob..i will kp on mention e age and sumone tt he don wish i mention..as he noe whnever i mention him i will get emo...haha..sumtime i will still tease him till he abit wth..hahaha..

rit e celebration i cn said veri hard will 4gt..hahaha...blame myself..haha..eat too much..eat till i unwell for the whole nite..try to vomit but fail..den eat med..veri xin gu..bbi kp on ask mi hao le ma..den he also unwell but nt jia lart as mi..tnk tt dae we both eat too much oily food le..hahahha..nan wang de yi tian..hahaha

to bbi..i will try not to mention e one..though i noe u didnt say anything..but i noe u will still mind abit..haha..i will learn not to mention and look forward..

feel so....haiz...exam

k i juz blog for 10min..ytd i chatted 4hr with bbi on e fone sia..now then gan chiong..sian..alot of thing i haven stdy yet..ytd i pang seh him..hahha..ytd i damn tired..so juz end my proj miting early..den go to club..tot bbi will in club practise his guitar..then i at first wanna to go home..as i told him le..i will go home straight as i don wan him to sent mi hm..hahaha..but tt time in e club gt c and cy..they kp on ask mi go find bbi..sian..then they so call threaten mi by taking fone to call bbi tt i going off..hahha..den i told them will go find bbi..haha..i go stadium n saw them playing e captain ball den i hav a mindset..let bbi play lor..den i juz left tt place and head to mrt station..but whn i at convention there i called him and inform him tt i go first..he straight away sian..haha..bad rit..

went home ard 5pm..den went to take a nap till my dad call mi for dinner thk..8.40pm..hahhaa..den bbi kp on call my hp..den i bo chai as i eating my dinner..wahahha..den after dinner..he call and i ans..den damn sia..i alot of thing haven complete..i complete my gem hmwrk onli..

now abit bore..come to sch so early to rot..so slpy rit now..my law proj haven do yet..sian..sms bbi..mayb now missing him ba..2dae lsn start at 1.30pm..as 10am lsn cancel so 9.30am-1.30pm free..so decide to use tt time to complete law proj..

hehe..rit le i edited our pic..

much more brighter rit..wahahaha..

haha..opps..sorry didnt announce..

hahaha..tt time in e middle of the nite..i actualli wanna to post up abt we alrdy being together le..but..on tt nite rit i discovered e blog cnt load photo..donno whr e loading pic icon went..hahaha..den i saved as draft..fate ba..

den on tt dae..bbi acc mi for lunch..den after lunch we both went bk to club as i having an appointment with other club ppl..den while waiting..wm come to club..n she asked..then i juz said yup..haha..she is e first to noe in club..as for my classmate they noe after we stead..hahahaha..den sy also come into e club which make her second to noe e news..btw her reaction damn big sia as bbi was her gl lao gong n gd buddy..den she abit like "wahhh...kp for so long den announce".she kp on complain tt we didnt announce den still wanna cont to pretend as single even being together..hahha..

den sy said don announce yet as she wanna to surprise their buddy mr.monkey..lol..den i damn sian sia..wanna to post up cnt post..still nd to wait till e celebration dae den can post...hahhahaha..

on ytd celebration was fun..hmmm..trying to cover something..hahaha..putting up a smile tt make bbi scare..hahhah.so fun..he said he go hm will take durian shell n kneel dwn..hahaha..

on tt dae e celebration pic i arldy post up in e fb..but i will still post up a few pics here..

so ytd we went for dinner n movie..hahaha..bbi catch one baby donald duck for mi and he used $2 onli..haha..he hah b4hand said his dad veri gd in catchin e toy..den i tot he wanna said he didnt hav e gene to catch it..but e opposite sia..he said he nt gd in useful thing but gd in catching dis kind of thing..haha..den i said "sure anot, wait u cnt catch it..ps sia" den he veri confident sia said catch one for mi..hahaha..den i pointed e baby donald duck..hehehe..den he said kies..he go change tokens..don rmb hw much he change..tnk 2 or 3 dollar..hahaha..e first time he play e baby nearly drop dwn..but aiya..e luck nt there..hahaha..den he second try den succeed...i damn excited whn he caught it...hahahaha..ltr i try load my baby pic up..den bbi damn yaya sia..he said nxt time catch biggersoft toy for mi..

rit le we went to watch "UP"..hahaha..dis also e reason bbi wanna mi to come out..Cartoon Movie..hahaha..he noe i like to watch cartoon movie than other movie..hahahha..

den whole grp went to buy tickets..first time watch 3D movie...hahaha..ex and abit unclear..from beginning still ok..juz abit different..as e hse look "real"..overall e movie was nice..e front part i tnk veri touching sia..whn both of them bcome old..veri lovely..relaxing and cute movie..yeah..we watched till 11plus..den some went to bbi hse..den i went bk wif xy n sh..

Here e pics

Gals

Group pic

3el,baby donald,bbi

luv bbi

confusion~~hahahaha

hahaha..recently ppl gt guess whether we stead anot..hahhaa..i said b4 i will announce rit..but who will notice..so juz hack care lor..hahaha..i donno whether now i am annoucning or wat..hahahha..mayb now juz e rit time to announce..time passed veri fast..so far so gd..we juz cont "pretending"..hahahhaha..so fun to pretend lar..they veri concerning my bbi..ya his is a gd and nice guy..though tt time alrdy bcome my bbi..but i still pretended lar..hahahaha..asked some of them y they support him..coz i not even gd enugh for him..mostly age mayb i will mind..coz i tnk of future..

y they support him to woo mi..approaching a dead end..y they still wanna to push him dwn..askin him to jia you..hahaha..ya i noe i cnt tnk liddat rit..but true..i tnk of future..he will b e one xin ku..so tt time we even planned for our future..i donno leh..mayb kua zhang to plan..

erm both our family noe..mine damn fast..hahha..is on tt dae announce straight aft agreed..hahaha..coz mayb i don like to hide thing frm my family..tnk my family also hope i walk out coz i tend to tnk and liu lian of my previous relationship..now gt bbi acc mi to walk
out e mist..ya his really a nice guy..we like veri normal and steady..he like don hav any temper..veri hard to make him angry sia..hahha..tnk onli tt time i said mean thing to him..can make him sad..bt tt time i realli hope he to give up on mi..now cnt make him sad..hahaha..wait i acc him sad..lol..angry i haven succeed..c whether i can make him angry ma..hahahha..didnt c him angry b4..hahhahaha..i veri kaim pa rit..so bad..

i donno whether we will last ma..haha..i kp on said we wont last to him..hahaha..i used to said thing liddat..he also used to it..he also noe i didnt mean it..juz i abit lack of confident to b with him..

3el<3 bbi

wee wee~~~

i donno how to say..realli donno how..some will ask do u like him, or do u have feeling for him?erm actually i donno whether i hiding up something..he bhave like bf sia..hahaha..erm like last wk n dis wk he will send mi home if he have time or send mi off till my stop..

rit le..ytd poly 50..wah realli damn tired..we run in e 25th position ba..i realli chiong sia..den muscle n mind realli veri cui..den ytd he send mi hm..i also donno ytd wat am i doing whn with him..hahaha..(> <)

erm back to him hah..i even gt ask him to reconsider and ask him to tnk clearly reallly im e one wan he looking for..for me i realli don wan to make both of us regret..for me..i nd alot of time as i tnk alot sia..mayb my tnking abit kua zhang as i hoping my nxt bf will b my future husband..i donno mayb my mindset is abit old lar..lzb ma..lol.veri hard to find gd guy rit..as in he can take in all my stuborness,demanding and unreasonable act or behaviour..hahaha..

so u guys don worry..if we two really bcome an item..i will announce kies..lol..

kies ba.i nd to focus on alot of thing nxt wk still nd to hand in mpm project,crs presentation and itp interview...haiz my itp i donno leh..veri well known company..start with S and end with L and almost everioe gt use their service..lol..donno lar..c wat my jobscope lor..hope gt related to maritime..hahhahaha

OMG..

its 4.35am..recently i damn tired n slpy..den having bad luck over mi..but my tao hua..gt one gon gon..fall in..hahaha..donno he blur or wat..everione said i veri bad ppl..y he still wan a bad person..hahaha..i noe y i bad at..hahha

i bad at hw i treat him??how i say??how i announced??ya i noe he a veri nice person..seem alot of ppl supported him..hahhaha..y they wont ask him to stop..in e end tnk he will get hurt..i tnk in dis way better than realli walk into relationship..as u cnt predict e future rit...everione is like cousellin mi "u nvr try how u noe"..but if i try i get injure agn??how??ni fu zhe isit??i don tnk i cn take another blow..i donno..no matter how i say him..how i treat him..how i being cruel..y he till now still hang in there..if even i like sumone..i wont admit..y..bcoz i tnk he cn find better one n he cn be more xin fu..den c he happi i happi..wo yi gan kai le..last time in pri or sec..i wont go confess or wat coz i noe it will nt last forever..its will b like puppy luv..so y waste my time..mayb to dis mindset i alrdy missed most of it..tt y whn ppl grow up their mindset change..den take advise frm frienz..ya go into relationship..walked two yr..in end wat i get??all those hard to describe feeling..cnt put dwn..missed past..sad over y a guy cn changed so fast aft broke..waited n waited n waited..kp on pestering him..hide myself up..den one yr passed..without him..

i don blive in guy..coz almost all i met wan.everitime they confess to u said they like u..den whn u reject them..they cn after few month fall in luv wif sumone else..cool rit..few month b4 still cn show mi how deep u luv mi..but aft reject can fall easily in luv with other..most of them is liddat..
so how cn i blive them..coz i noe guy mayb u like mi bcoz of crush or wat..its nt real "like"..so i juz wanna to let them to noe mayb i nt e one they looking for..so i everitime i will reject them..

bad??ya watever..bad person..i don mind being bad..being cruel n sacastic..
even "if" i like he i also don wan to hai ta..bcoz he realli is a nice person..
i juz nd time to tnk n observe mayb till tt time my mindset change..

wah..sian..

hahaha..im back..tnk my blog rottin le rit..erm..recently donno wat i tnking..veri confusing.i donno lar..

i really donno..i don wan to hai ren..donno..i tnk i shld juz kp on escaping ba..dis kind of thing..don nd to b together better rit..i realli donno..i donno whether i being pressured or wat..i don wan make any one of us to regret in e future..i been hurted once..which veri deep..tt y i cnt walk out..i worry abt it...nice ppl i don deserve..coz i realli nt gd..if i gd i wont broke up le..hahhaha..i juz c first ba..like someone no nd to b 2gether...i cn de..going to a yr..lefted mi n pig pig..changed..

his also a gd guy..but how there are alot of factors exist..tt y i don dare to tnk..bt y hah..he will fall into it..if nt we cn remain as veri gd frienz..i scare his wan mayb juz a crush realli nt tt "like"...so time will prove rit...hahhaa..i donno whether i doing e right thing...mayb i will hurt him..i donno..i don wan to hurt anyone..i nt a gd person..

wo yao yong gong

haiz.recently donno y how much i try for the paper still score till liddat..haiz..though i wanna to go the holland unibut atlest score well ma..haiz i still gt alot of thing haven do sia..financial proj..diploma-plus assignments..CRS practise..SP Star..law retest...ahhhhhh..wat e fish.recently i kp on use wat e fish..hahaha..i tnk it sound better than e f word..haiz..donno lar..i shld ban myself from msn n online game..3el pls wake up.all score till liddat...haiz.....

rit le my ex..haiz..they ytd went play bb wif my ex de class..sad sia..donno i feeling sad sia..coz heard how they complain..haiz..he is a good guy..hope he cont b strong n hack care how ppl tnk of him..i feel damn bad tt how i treat him in e past..i learned..i donno leh..i saw my ex online ytd..but i didnt chat wif him..don wan to disturb him ma..


donno lar..recently gt rumor..but i donno sia..wanna to ask whether..but scare will affect e friendship we having now...haha..so till now i juz kp on quiet..i tnk veri hard to find sumone who r comfortable to chat wif...they kp on make fun sia..ok lar..we both like ok ok to it..juz ps n sumtime will stare at them..tt pearlyn lar..wah..nw everitime c her..she kp on call n call..ask mi accept..also donno she wan mi to accept wat..lol..i said le i don wan to hai ren..den i cn said im 100percent da lu ren..k lar i donno will i change bcoz e first relationship ended liddat..den pls lar mayb nth wan lor..ya lor correct lor nth wan ma..y they like make till like we both gt sumthing fishy..

i feel so tense..

omg..i was on mc for my law paper..donno nt feeling too well tt dae..realli cnt take it..i donno whether i cn still take it..i try nt to put too much stress on mi..i donno wanna to stdy unvi ma.i donno wanna to go tt holland uni..but tt wan cn don score well..all juz e $$ part tt i worried..in local wan i still wondering whether to go stdy ma..3yr n $$..for mi mayb abit long le..still cont stdy?? to mi 1 and half yr mayb i still cn take it..if ask mi stdy 3yr more..i donno stdy mayb its bettter than working rit...but i abit tire of stdy le..frm sec..i like to enjoy than stdy..tt y i nd longer path to walk..from e longer path..i noe my luv one..also hav gd memory..den everithing goes veri smoothing for mi..except for some time..2yr for mi veri fast passed..mayb gt his acc..i wont feel so bore..but now i was on my own..

everidae seem so bore..

i now emoing~~juz woke up from nap..so my temper now veri good..feel like shouting everiwhr..don wan to stdy anymore..i donno lar..feel damn shit rit now..gt alot of thing i nd to think n settle..i feel so tense rit nw..

gt alot of things nd to settle..sch fee, d-plus work,law paper,sp star,camp all type of miting..this two month..i nd to cut short e time playin bb..time nvr b enug coz i kp on think there alots of things nd to settle..den feel more sian..den i wont feel like moving on to do all thing..i wanna to escape from dis world..

k i cnt kp on think on bad side..

wah now 2.44am..ahhhhh..ltr still nd to clean pig pig bedding..sian..e feeling agn fading..mayb i didnt c him..i donno..if i c him in sch agn i tnk i will fall bk to e 3el tt i hate to b..i didnt tnk of him le..he also busy wif his work..even in msn..i c him online..i also wont chat wif him..i noe he alrdy nt e one i noe..hahaha..brave rit..goin to walk out e mist...
rit le..i tnk veri nan de rit..3el having rumor..lol..lzb also gt rumor..lol..

they kp making fun of mi wif sumone sia..donno wat they tnking..hahaha..i tnk karma ba..hahaha..normalli i make fun of them..they hardly gt topic to make fun mi..haiyo..they veri cute..tt dae i donno lar..damn ps lar..i juz don wan to react sia..e more i react they like happi sia..hahahha..let them hav fun..tnk e guy poor thing..nd to match wif mi...hahahhahaha..my mood being better..hahah..now so slpy haven do my d-plus assignment..sian..

so contradicting..

i also donno wat i doing nw..ahhhh..im so contradicting lar..haiz..to dis mayb then i bhave liddat..hack care cn b frienz cn liao..i scared i add being reject..tt y didnt add..so my frienz ask mi juz add..so i juz add it..juz like my dad said..gdbye still frienz..hahha..hope he does not dislike mi..if him dislike i also bo bian...it seem odd lor..like i e one who behind..still haven move on..hahahha..but now i ok le ma..so din feel anything..coz all over..i said b4 i now will try to open up..ya..in e process..hahha..happy??still not sure..mayb gt frienz support n pig family support..hahahha..feel like goin to beach at nite..c stars agn..anyone wanna to go c...hahhaha..

ahhhh..i haven stdy finish..still at here blog..die soon..tnk wed e worse..nt feeling too well..hope i didnt get e oink oink flu..k lar i go stdy le..

crazy...yeah..

stdy till abit siao..i cnt kp on view n view..dis onli make mi unhappy...hahahha..my sis told mi to put down this burden..hhahaha..ya..alot of ppl tell mi to put dwn..stop liu lian..i realli nd to move on n get back my confident..

anyway i muz hav e confident..aiya dis world so big..sure gt one will accept my bad points n better than him..wahahha..set ar..

i nt going to lock myself up anymore..hahahha..i juz wait..atlest now try to open out...hahha..i tnk i scare of failure..so e nxt coming i will b more cherish n less demanding..tt ppl learn frm their mistake..wahahhaa..wee wee wee..i luv my family...

yea i go stdy le...cya bloggy..luv ya

juz now stdy till abit bore so go view..den view..even the who he also got add...haiz..he really dislike mi so much ma..i nt worth he to add..den i worst than anyone to him ar..tt time really break down..heng i now get over it..i withdraw it..atlest save part of my zhi june..i changed alot of thing..mayb really cnt take it..donno y feel so insult..

but now i ok le...back to stdy..i hate emo..

Oooo In a Good Mood..WAHAHAHA

2dae i woke up 6am stdy till 7.30am den went bk to slp..coz raining..Yeah..damn nice..so windy n peaceful...when i went bk to slp..i dream of him....hehehe...2dae e dream veri zhen shi n shen qi..haha

i abit siao rit..on mon still sad abt it...but donno y..this time e dream mayb will happen in reality...hahahha..i dream of met till him donno at whr..den we sit dwn infront of a shop n start to chat..i still rmb e topic we chat..hahaha..tt time in dream i gt ask him..he gt gf ma...hahhaha..then he ans ya..den i also don hav any reaction..like veri normal n complain abit abt in msn tt time ask him gt gf ma..like didnt ans e qns liddat i still said"den shld tell mi gt ma still make it so shen mi"..haha..den i start to ask him when did they stead...(veri surprise tt i rmb e date he told mi) he ans 17May..den i ask her name..two time summore..but i 4gt..(shit rit..onli dis i 4gt)veri shen qi part come liao..den i said "u guys liddat gt one yr plus le ma"..he said siao hah..tat time still wif mi..whr gt 1yr..dis yr den stead..hahhaha shen qi rit...even in dream i also tt blur blur...den still gt ask him his gf gt go n watch him play bb ma...(random chattin..li hai ba still rmb..wahaha)..lastly gt ask abt e add thing but haven get his reply..i wake up le..i rmb all e qns i asked except e gal nam..shit leh..i even ask two times..he repeat 2x..but den i still 4gt..but anyway hack care..hehehe..my mood now damn happy..

hahha..he gt gf is a gd thing so nth to sad over it..coz i also wan him to hav a gf..hahhaha..weird rit..
haha..last time my frienz gt tell mi..he help mi sort out..i at e situation..tat i still like him,but i don wan to b with him, but also curious with wat gf he hav....hahaha..ya lor this is wat i were at...hahaha..now ok le i assume he gt gf..tt y now i wont chat or ask him anything...hahhaha..feel better to tnk dis way...hahhaa..heex..gt dream of him..

2dae one of my ear start bleeding donno y..damn pain..donno wat is tt..tnk nth wan...hahha..gt thing till tt dae den worry..wahahhaha...now i damn happi n in good mood to stdy..hehehheh..so cya bloggy..luv ya..heex (o^u^o) (-3-)muack..stdy stdy stdy..jia you o(^n^)o

hurts..nt worth a simple hibye frienz

i don wan to say le..my exist realli let u feel so uncomfortable??
u hav yr reasons,yr rights..nvm..u take gd care ba..

bloggy..

ytd one of my frienz come n tell mi he view pic tt gt my ex..hahaha..i tt time also shock him gt fb..then his frienz more than mine sia...i tot he don hav fb sia..hahahha..ya lor..bu yao siao gan ta..hahha..but i don like to add those unknown ppl in my acct..they will noe my email add..hey did they realise my interest in woman..but so far no unknown gal add mi :( haiz.....my pic..i tnk is nice den put as my profile..nt nice wan put for wat..my frienz ask mi i liddat put wanna to attract guy hah..den i diao..i straight away tell him but my interest i put woman..i tot liddat woman will come n add mi instead of guy..

hahaha..my profile pic don look like mi lor..but most of e pic abit don look like mi..they even tot i go photoshop my pic..lol..i damn lasy to edit n i donno hw to use photoshop..i noe onli firework..is orginal photo..den ytd in club ma..chat wif my cca frienz..they said i look nice n swt gal BUT e moment i opened my mouth..e image gone..wahahahahhaha..i told u liao..i saw any frienz i will bcome loudspeaker n chatterbox..nvr judge ppl by their look..lol...i tnk i realli depend on wearing..go out i care my image if i wear abit mature..or dress..will den ladylike..but if go out wear sloppy sloppy type..i can shout here n there..like tomboy or aunty..hahahhaha..so in sch e pattern i wearing abit zhong sin..so cn expect i will shout here n there..but gt one time i siao bcoz of bb..i wear nice nice go play..image gone..hack care..in sch..but i quite zhi hao tt i wear liddat also cn get shoot in..wahahha..

they damn bad sia..gt one of them curious my ex appearance..lol..whn e moment they saw e pic..they shock sia..coz their 3elinda image is those man man type..didnt expect i will like small gal lie on my ex shoulder..pls lar..bf leh..of coz will different leh..they even ask isit he hurt mi too deep..then i change to liddat nan ren po...lol..nope..from last time till nw i still e same..i veri man wan..

ytd view through some pic in fb as my frienz said gt him...i donno y..i emo agn...but heng gt frienz kp console mi..then i abit alrite wif it..den 2dae i go view e other pic..i feel abit disgusted by some of e pic ..donno lar damn disgust..

den saw e grp photo..or his oneself photo..he hah..body abit big then e head small small n e hair short ba..nt nice..but also nt my biz..hahha..he nt my bf ma..so hack care...don nd to care..dis job leave to his future gf or his gf to care..hahahha..i ok le..juz c cn liao don wanna b...

ytd i played mj..i e onli won..wahaha..won $20..hahhhahha..pocket$$..hehehehe..but agn on credit..haiz..

haiz..i wanna to b happy

ya..everitime in sch..like to laugh, being ah soh,being tom boy,being gentleman,being talkative,being playful,being cheerful...i tnk in sch my image is liddat..to mi when e moment i saw my firenz, any frienz...i will b veri cheerful n loudspeaker..

recently i kp on go back to sch..stay in club hse..so called stdying...oneself go eat breakfast,oneself eat lunch,oneself enjoyin my life..e feeling nt so bad..coz used to it..hahahha..tnk my itp rit, lunch time wont b a prob to mi..i cn oneself eat at e corner..although it sound emo..i wanna to try b outgoing but cant..i don hav $$ and i hate place tt hav alot of ppl n most of all now i don hav time to stdy..so bo bain..after mst..

feel so sian..anyone wanna to b my jing shen zhi zhu..one yr rching..wat hav i done for e one yr??

2yr..nt short n long..now another yr going to pass..i tnk whn we broke up..u let mi grow bk to b independent..to noe whr i was too demanding...to noe hw bad i was..to let mi cherish wat i hav for now..a yr..

seem like e title realli impt..to mi title realli doesnt matter..like juz like..don nd to b 2gether..juz cn c him gettin his xin fu cn liao..juz muz noe how to take it..3e u sure can take it..

thx for e consoling..askin mi don bcoz a plant giving up a forest..let it grow..haha..i still hala wif him..dis plant veri hard to find wan..veri hard cn find one more plant like dis...

tell mi to let it grow..den i tell him let it grow wait ppl dig out n plant at their hse..i spend two yr to water it..ask mi to let it grow..ya i will let it grow but i donno whether i can take it if i saw sumone dig n place in their hse...

hope i can take it..i juz wanna to c dis plant grow well n realli find a gd owner..im sure e plant cn find owner wan..coz i damn damn damn bad owner...don tnk gt sumone bad than mi..wahahha

k lar i feeling better..back to e lzb in ppl eye...

emo~~

haiz..emo..i hate emo...donno cn i survive one more hit..faster let mi noe the truth..don worry i cn take it..die die muz take it..faster let mi noe..

ahhhh..family..my sis going to move to my bedroom..mother askin mi to move my stuffs away..so tt will b enugh space for my elder sis..haiz..den all my things how...my soft toys how..my seashells..memories box..dry bouquet..earings..necklances..rings..whr to put them..y i muz b e one giving in..y..den there like no more space for mi to stay in..squeeze with my younger sis in her stdy rm..den whr my bedroom..though i everitime didnt slp inside..but that is e onli place i place alot of my things tt i cherish most..y??y muz i give in??

k lar i tnk i making a fuss about it..juz my mood nt so good..after veiwing sumthing..haiz..sad..

no one will realli care...emo~~~~how to feel better...chat wif sumone...i feel so useless..ltr play wif pig pig..haiz..pig pig ah..she like pinky pig liao..her fur she kp on scratch out..den one side no fur...haiz..i am a bad mummy..last time still gt her daddy to care her..haiz..i emoing so don nd to care mi..

new soft toys..wahahaha

Wahhahaha..on wed rit pearlyn n i stay bk in club to stdy..hehehe..but actualli we chat instead of stdy...hahahha..tt dae sihao ask us wanna to go ikea ma..den we also sian ma so we went ikea..walk walk..i saw e rat gt new color..hehehe..last time my grey color rat n snake my ex bought wan..hehehe..now gt new color..so i go buy..hehehe..so cute..white rat..but actualli i wanna e crocodile wan..gt baby croco on its mouth..but ex sia..$24.90..haiz..if cheaper i will buy..so in e end i bought e white rat n small white rat spend $4.90..hahaha..

do we look alike..hahahaha

happy family

heartshape tail..

now gt partner le..yea

the grey rat he bought

the two rats i bought

Makeup Lesson

yoooozzzz..on thur rit went to attend a makeup lsn..is under my d-plus module..taking theatre production performance so we hav to noe some knowledge abt stage makeup..coz whn u at stage yr normal makeup wont obvious and we still gt learn ageging makeup..cool rit..

stage makeup veri heavy..so scary..i like aunties 38..hahahaha..overall veri fun..love makeup..erm i mean know abit of makeup also gd for gal..bt i don put makeup coz i tnk natural beauty more suit mi..hhaha..i put makeup like abit ah lian..i tnk those se bei bei will tot i sell wan..first time put fake eyelashes n bright color for my eyes..my eyes become damn big..tt dae daikai drive us go eat diam sum at chinatown area..overall nt bad..hahaha..den aft eating we went to IT fair..aft tt went hm wif my sis..my sis shock..hahaha..whn going hm met till my mum..my mum tnk hu is dis..hahaha..den i look at her..then she shock n shout sia.."y u make up till liddat"...hhahahahha..