bloggy i so unhappy..

why is mi agn..every time i give way..can u guys don't be so bias..why u treating me this way..its hurt..why must i give way, isit i have no right to say anything just because i not smart n being stubborn..i donno..why u want to flash back those memory how u treat mi in the past..why why why..i already gave up i dont beg u guys for not doting me like other..but why u guys treat me like....i donno..have u guys ever think of mi first..why every time im e one shld let go..why why why..is so hurt so unfair why they can behave like nobody and u guys din scold or wat den why i cant behave like them..ya i stupid..why those memory kp flash bk how u treat mi..

those mermory will nvr be erase away..u happy rit..making mi so upset..so unfair..

i feel better now..juz now go for mc outing overall ok ba..no mood to eat, so very easy full le..

bloggy i dono..i really donno

its 5am plus..i wanna to blog abt alot thing like my birthdae...wat have happen..club thing and d-plus thing..but i too tire and no other time to care..for club i feel i like no longer in..as i donno whn their nxt miting and i juz cnt find the minute miting for every miting they have..den everitime my work end at 6pm..how am i going to travel to sch for miting..den e nxt thing i also unsure everithing..so i go to the miting i sure waste everione time..i unsure i can only blame my itp is a 6month course..even sat i also working..there is only a sunday to let mi to rest but to my work?still have my d-plus is my final sem..both impt sem to mi..i donno..if my itp in 3rd yr mayb will b a gd thing..atlest i can help them and know what they going thru..i hate myself so bloody busy..so rush..i try my best to involve in every event but sumtime i really feel you xin wu li..ya they also have project to rush..everione is busy..i donno bloggy..i really donno..

i now hoping my itp end soon not the ppl not nice..they are veri nice uncles and brothers..they take care of mi..is juz i have alot of thing to busy with..even now early 5am i memorising script..hope to end my itp soon and go oversea n rest..planning to go taiwan but tat wan still on hold first..gt one confirm going one is travel to gentin with bbi n my family..i feel excited haha..donno y..mayb first time travel outside singapore with bf..so very qi tai whn my itp end..but the main aim go there rest and after that chiong for the my last yr with poly..

yeah!!!

happy happy happy...mon need to hand in assignment..that time i really scare that i wont score well..haha..

i counted myself lucky..my itp place from the beginning i not used to it..then i still have miting to attend..my first impression of my supervisor very scary..coz he seem very fierce..hahaha..but when time goes by actually he's a nice supervisor..from beginning i scoring B in logbook that time really abit disappointed but ltron i start to get A all e way..hahaha..actually i learned alot of thing from there that why from the beginning i very stress..hahaha..

not so bad working at there..my supervisor still let mi half day off every wed to let mi attend my diploma-plus..so i can go back to sch and c my club xiao guas and lecturers too..then last week my supervisor let me off half day for whole week except for thursday totally on leave for one day..for my cca sp star..so that time quite worry for my grading for e assignment..that time he still complain y i didnt come for thursday donno why he ask..maybe making fun or what..that time i really scare will affect my grade..

then on wed i saw the previous itp student who work at there..den i ask him how his grade for his 1st assignment then i get to know the grade he gt not very well..then that time increase my worry..but on thursday whn i get back my grade i damn happy..hehehe..god treat me well...in chinese..hahaha..


now i feel lucky for everithing i do..hehehe..i have a nice and gd bbi always that let mi bully..hehehe..den sp star also veri success..now left my last worry d-plus for this sem...hahaha..haven to my homework..

till my end of this sem i will taste of success after that i will focus back to my studies..do well in third year..yeah..active active active..i don't want my life in sp just as white as a paper..i want to enjoy and fill in as lot of color as i can..jia you

THE PAST

wahahha..2dae i feel so peaceful..but the for the past few day i really under a great depression..i donno why maybe itp,sp star and my diploma-plus..maybe now my itp is the i was worry about and the leave on thursday..which i don't wish to think now..

now i feel so peaceful now already settle sp star..overall though abit disappointed but not to my fellow frienz but on me..they did very well if don't have those ppl pulling us we sure can do a better and a perfect job..this time i just learn from it..really thank yl and every teams..pub,audio,food,performance,stage,logistic and our club xiao guas..

yeah i going MIA..wahaha..but till partcipating cs event and cultural event on the day i can make it..i really hate my itp land on sat too..really very tire..just rest for one day the next day work again..

recently i keep on think on my itp..maybe sp star and d-plus homework..i abit over worry because of taking one day leave it will affect my grade..haiz..now i don give a damn le..i just work hard..talking about the leave i also spend in school not go out have fun..even i sick i din go see doc..what he want me to do..really don know how school communicate with the company..

recently i don online le since my itp start..whenever i go home i just rest awhile and went bk to slp..i miss chatting with my frienz..but i was too tire to online..

right bloggy that time after sp star..i be follow my someone..and the someone is we can't see..i can feel that..but i can't see it and i also don't want to look at it..after that nite..on fri i totally under depression till ytd..if not my bbi telling was it the one follow me affecting mi..i also won't link it back to it..

tat day bbi keep on ask me what happen..i also don't know what going on..i just feel moodless and i abit irrtated by him keep on asking me what happen..then i vent anger on him..very sorry to my bbi..u r a nice guy..but i really don't know why..recently i keep on think i have a very good bf why sometime i still feel so empty..i don't know why..

my mood come back since 2dae..wahaha..just feel so peaceful..maybe downstair the song making me feel so peaceful..now my downstair having celebration for thank god ceremony..i don know which religion but the song really let me feel very peaceful..

k bloggy i tnk i going to do my log book le..take care and rest well..i don't know when i will blog again..

itp going on..

yeah itp start le..i being allocated at the warehouse...hahaha..actualli quite ok ba..coz i noe wat to do and gt interest in doing tt y..ytd i missed one dae work as i take my tp agn..till now then passed..no feeling actualli..coz alrdy numb..den 2dae argue with my mum agn..same usual thing she like to compare my life n my sis life..ya watever..hack care her..

haiz tnk nw i goin to work soon..learn new things..den my wearing can don wear formal..yeah..juz nd to wear cover shoes..hahahha..still alrite ba..but sat we also nd to work..sian..

cya bloggy..

OMG my blog....

haiz now my blog donno why changed to a format whr i cnt load pic and video..haiz..donno wat happen..actualli b4hand gt blog abt one post..but i save as draft..hahaha..yeah i rottin since last wk..now rottin for e second week..wahahaha..so sian..bbi still having exam..haiz..cnt disturb him..bbi jia you!!!wo jing shen shan zhi chi ni

he ah..still wanna come out celebrate..wth..hahaha..i told him le..e time we get together to mi is not impt le..as long as i hav him bside mi i don nd any celebration(dis wan i din tell him)..hahaha..but he insist to celebrate..hahaha..now waiting for him to finish his exams..to mi now i not so mind le..mayb due to past ba..i learn to chnange..although my bbi is a gd guy..but i now learning to b a gd gf to him..in e past to my ex i too demandin le..hahaha..so ppl nd to learn from their mistake ma..although i noe bbi don mind i being too demandin n bad to him..hahahhaha

den everitime i wake up frm nap..i will get emo..hahha..bbi noe my pattern..hahaha..i will kp on said sumthing to hurt him or wat..hahhaha..he said he used to it le..hahaha..i veri hard cn argue with him..coz he too hao ren le..i also cnt bear to argue wif him if not like i bullying him..wahahahha..donno leh to mi bbi is like sumone who can chat with..sumone who will stand by my side..sumone i can share my joy,my sadness..really appreciate wat he done for mi..but sumtime i kp on give him prob..i will kp on mention e age and sumone tt he don wish i mention..as he noe whnever i mention him i will get emo...haha..sumtime i will still tease him till he abit wth..hahaha..

rit e celebration i cn said veri hard will 4gt..hahaha...blame myself..haha..eat too much..eat till i unwell for the whole nite..try to vomit but fail..den eat med..veri xin gu..bbi kp on ask mi hao le ma..den he also unwell but nt jia lart as mi..tnk tt dae we both eat too much oily food le..hahahha..nan wang de yi tian..hahaha

to bbi..i will try not to mention e one..though i noe u didnt say anything..but i noe u will still mind abit..haha..i will learn not to mention and look forward..

feel so....haiz...exam

k i juz blog for 10min..ytd i chatted 4hr with bbi on e fone sia..now then gan chiong..sian..alot of thing i haven stdy yet..ytd i pang seh him..hahha..ytd i damn tired..so juz end my proj miting early..den go to club..tot bbi will in club practise his guitar..then i at first wanna to go home..as i told him le..i will go home straight as i don wan him to sent mi hm..hahaha..but tt time in e club gt c and cy..they kp on ask mi go find bbi..sian..then they so call threaten mi by taking fone to call bbi tt i going off..hahha..den i told them will go find bbi..haha..i go stadium n saw them playing e captain ball den i hav a mindset..let bbi play lor..den i juz left tt place and head to mrt station..but whn i at convention there i called him and inform him tt i go first..he straight away sian..haha..bad rit..

went home ard 5pm..den went to take a nap till my dad call mi for dinner thk..8.40pm..hahhaa..den bbi kp on call my hp..den i bo chai as i eating my dinner..wahahha..den after dinner..he call and i ans..den damn sia..i alot of thing haven complete..i complete my gem hmwrk onli..

now abit bore..come to sch so early to rot..so slpy rit now..my law proj haven do yet..sian..sms bbi..mayb now missing him ba..2dae lsn start at 1.30pm..as 10am lsn cancel so 9.30am-1.30pm free..so decide to use tt time to complete law proj..

hehe..rit le i edited our pic..

much more brighter rit..wahahaha..