wee wee~~~

i donno how to say..realli donno how..some will ask do u like him, or do u have feeling for him?erm actually i donno whether i hiding up something..he bhave like bf sia..hahaha..erm like last wk n dis wk he will send mi home if he have time or send mi off till my stop..

rit le..ytd poly 50..wah realli damn tired..we run in e 25th position ba..i realli chiong sia..den muscle n mind realli veri cui..den ytd he send mi hm..i also donno ytd wat am i doing whn with him..hahaha..(> <)

erm back to him hah..i even gt ask him to reconsider and ask him to tnk clearly reallly im e one wan he looking for..for me i realli don wan to make both of us regret..for me..i nd alot of time as i tnk alot sia..mayb my tnking abit kua zhang as i hoping my nxt bf will b my future husband..i donno mayb my mindset is abit old lar..lzb ma..lol.veri hard to find gd guy rit..as in he can take in all my stuborness,demanding and unreasonable act or behaviour..hahaha..

so u guys don worry..if we two really bcome an item..i will announce kies..lol..

kies ba.i nd to focus on alot of thing nxt wk still nd to hand in mpm project,crs presentation and itp interview...haiz my itp i donno leh..veri well known company..start with S and end with L and almost everioe gt use their service..lol..donno lar..c wat my jobscope lor..hope gt related to maritime..hahhahaha

OMG..

its 4.35am..recently i damn tired n slpy..den having bad luck over mi..but my tao hua..gt one gon gon..fall in..hahaha..donno he blur or wat..everione said i veri bad ppl..y he still wan a bad person..hahaha..i noe y i bad at..hahha

i bad at hw i treat him??how i say??how i announced??ya i noe he a veri nice person..seem alot of ppl supported him..hahhaha..y they wont ask him to stop..in e end tnk he will get hurt..i tnk in dis way better than realli walk into relationship..as u cnt predict e future rit...everione is like cousellin mi "u nvr try how u noe"..but if i try i get injure agn??how??ni fu zhe isit??i don tnk i cn take another blow..i donno..no matter how i say him..how i treat him..how i being cruel..y he till now still hang in there..if even i like sumone..i wont admit..y..bcoz i tnk he cn find better one n he cn be more xin fu..den c he happi i happi..wo yi gan kai le..last time in pri or sec..i wont go confess or wat coz i noe it will nt last forever..its will b like puppy luv..so y waste my time..mayb to dis mindset i alrdy missed most of it..tt y whn ppl grow up their mindset change..den take advise frm frienz..ya go into relationship..walked two yr..in end wat i get??all those hard to describe feeling..cnt put dwn..missed past..sad over y a guy cn changed so fast aft broke..waited n waited n waited..kp on pestering him..hide myself up..den one yr passed..without him..

i don blive in guy..coz almost all i met wan.everitime they confess to u said they like u..den whn u reject them..they cn after few month fall in luv wif sumone else..cool rit..few month b4 still cn show mi how deep u luv mi..but aft reject can fall easily in luv with other..most of them is liddat..
so how cn i blive them..coz i noe guy mayb u like mi bcoz of crush or wat..its nt real "like"..so i juz wanna to let them to noe mayb i nt e one they looking for..so i everitime i will reject them..

bad??ya watever..bad person..i don mind being bad..being cruel n sacastic..
even "if" i like he i also don wan to hai ta..bcoz he realli is a nice person..
i juz nd time to tnk n observe mayb till tt time my mindset change..

wah..sian..

hahaha..im back..tnk my blog rottin le rit..erm..recently donno wat i tnking..veri confusing.i donno lar..

i really donno..i don wan to hai ren..donno..i tnk i shld juz kp on escaping ba..dis kind of thing..don nd to b together better rit..i realli donno..i donno whether i being pressured or wat..i don wan make any one of us to regret in e future..i been hurted once..which veri deep..tt y i cnt walk out..i worry abt it...nice ppl i don deserve..coz i realli nt gd..if i gd i wont broke up le..hahhaha..i juz c first ba..like someone no nd to b 2gether...i cn de..going to a yr..lefted mi n pig pig..changed..

his also a gd guy..but how there are alot of factors exist..tt y i don dare to tnk..bt y hah..he will fall into it..if nt we cn remain as veri gd frienz..i scare his wan mayb juz a crush realli nt tt "like"...so time will prove rit...hahhaa..i donno whether i doing e right thing...mayb i will hurt him..i donno..i don wan to hurt anyone..i nt a gd person..

wo yao yong gong

haiz.recently donno y how much i try for the paper still score till liddat..haiz..though i wanna to go the holland unibut atlest score well ma..haiz i still gt alot of thing haven do sia..financial proj..diploma-plus assignments..CRS practise..SP Star..law retest...ahhhhhh..wat e fish.recently i kp on use wat e fish..hahaha..i tnk it sound better than e f word..haiz..donno lar..i shld ban myself from msn n online game..3el pls wake up.all score till liddat...haiz.....

rit le my ex..haiz..they ytd went play bb wif my ex de class..sad sia..donno i feeling sad sia..coz heard how they complain..haiz..he is a good guy..hope he cont b strong n hack care how ppl tnk of him..i feel damn bad tt how i treat him in e past..i learned..i donno leh..i saw my ex online ytd..but i didnt chat wif him..don wan to disturb him ma..


donno lar..recently gt rumor..but i donno sia..wanna to ask whether..but scare will affect e friendship we having now...haha..so till now i juz kp on quiet..i tnk veri hard to find sumone who r comfortable to chat wif...they kp on make fun sia..ok lar..we both like ok ok to it..juz ps n sumtime will stare at them..tt pearlyn lar..wah..nw everitime c her..she kp on call n call..ask mi accept..also donno she wan mi to accept wat..lol..i said le i don wan to hai ren..den i cn said im 100percent da lu ren..k lar i donno will i change bcoz e first relationship ended liddat..den pls lar mayb nth wan lor..ya lor correct lor nth wan ma..y they like make till like we both gt sumthing fishy..

i feel so tense..

omg..i was on mc for my law paper..donno nt feeling too well tt dae..realli cnt take it..i donno whether i cn still take it..i try nt to put too much stress on mi..i donno wanna to stdy unvi ma.i donno wanna to go tt holland uni..but tt wan cn don score well..all juz e $$ part tt i worried..in local wan i still wondering whether to go stdy ma..3yr n $$..for mi mayb abit long le..still cont stdy?? to mi 1 and half yr mayb i still cn take it..if ask mi stdy 3yr more..i donno stdy mayb its bettter than working rit...but i abit tire of stdy le..frm sec..i like to enjoy than stdy..tt y i nd longer path to walk..from e longer path..i noe my luv one..also hav gd memory..den everithing goes veri smoothing for mi..except for some time..2yr for mi veri fast passed..mayb gt his acc..i wont feel so bore..but now i was on my own..

everidae seem so bore..

i now emoing~~juz woke up from nap..so my temper now veri good..feel like shouting everiwhr..don wan to stdy anymore..i donno lar..feel damn shit rit now..gt alot of thing i nd to think n settle..i feel so tense rit nw..

gt alot of things nd to settle..sch fee, d-plus work,law paper,sp star,camp all type of miting..this two month..i nd to cut short e time playin bb..time nvr b enug coz i kp on think there alots of things nd to settle..den feel more sian..den i wont feel like moving on to do all thing..i wanna to escape from dis world..

k i cnt kp on think on bad side..

wah now 2.44am..ahhhhh..ltr still nd to clean pig pig bedding..sian..e feeling agn fading..mayb i didnt c him..i donno..if i c him in sch agn i tnk i will fall bk to e 3el tt i hate to b..i didnt tnk of him le..he also busy wif his work..even in msn..i c him online..i also wont chat wif him..i noe he alrdy nt e one i noe..hahaha..brave rit..goin to walk out e mist...
rit le..i tnk veri nan de rit..3el having rumor..lol..lzb also gt rumor..lol..

they kp making fun of mi wif sumone sia..donno wat they tnking..hahaha..i tnk karma ba..hahaha..normalli i make fun of them..they hardly gt topic to make fun mi..haiyo..they veri cute..tt dae i donno lar..damn ps lar..i juz don wan to react sia..e more i react they like happi sia..hahahha..let them hav fun..tnk e guy poor thing..nd to match wif mi...hahahhahaha..my mood being better..hahah..now so slpy haven do my d-plus assignment..sian..