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fall sick..haha..feel so unwell..bt its ok de lar..ren shen ma..ppl will fall sick one or two time..its veri normal..though abit xin gu to breath..lose voice..donno hw..i gt look through e camp song..bt cnt practise much wif e voice i hav nw..quite jia lart..once lose voice i tnk my throat nd 2 take veri long time 2 recover,tnk atlest a month ba..veri jia lart..haiz..recently i veri veri lasy..haiz..y i bcum so lazy..mayb sick ba..kp on coughing..everitime sick will gt easily emo sia..haha..kies i will take gd care..


mummy recently catching a show call min zhong zhu tin wo ai ni..i get veri emo sia..tnk alot..tt y till nw haven slp..now emoing..haiz..i don dare to show my emotion to anyone..i rather i leave an alway's cheerful n happy belinda to ppl eyes..i don like to influence ppl by my mood..i get veri emo easily bt i didnt show much coz i don like ppl to c my weak part..i feel damn unwell whn ppl will use those eyes tt pity on you..even tt dae i met him..i in e library i start 2 get emo..everithing seem to mi is nt impt..den donno y my eyes bcame watery..bt i still died died wanna to put a veri strong side..haha..nw emoing..wat is emoing??i feel damn emo rit nw..i tnk bk dis few month..wat i busy at..why i cnt focus everithing??i feel so useless..y kp on tnk n tnk..my brain damn stupid..4more months to a yr..i still 2yr to go..i juz nw realli tnk alot..y he changed so much aft he was in..i realli abit regret tt time still acc him go register..remember once i having a high fever i sms him..he was on a class outin doing cip on donation..he didnt even care mi..his reply damn cold tt time..i tt time realli felt upset wif it..till tt time he told mi he alrdy put it dwn..i go call him..tt time his tone all changed he alrdy nt e one i noe..he seem veri hate to listen my voice..i tt time damn damn xin tong..he reply veri cold..like wanna to end e conservation asap..till nw 8month passed..i donno..i realli donno..or i alrdy give up hope on guy..bcoz i been hurt so deep..nt he didnt treat mi well whn i was still his gf..bt is e reality..aft broke up..y cn someone changed so much..isit all fake sign??i felt realli confuse..donno which one is e true him..so nw alrdy created a barrier in my internal..bcome don dare to face reality,scare step into relationship..mayb i cnt 4gt him coz his mine first bf ba..y i cnt..i also donno....tnk by nw arldy hav someone else in his heart le..i also hope i cn faster remove e barrier..bt i realli don wan to anyhw to take in someone else to let my heart feel well..this all emo part..is juz write it dwn to make myself feel better..pls don console mi or wat..kies..i tnk i nw go slp le..ltr still gt trainin i tnk going 2 died soon ba..nw eyes damn dry..haha..goin to slp le..bb bloggy..