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this blog not so dead ba..haha..lively rit..have to change to not emo blogskin n link..start a brand new 3el..hahaha..i have to learn to put down everything..

i thought i have putted it down..but all along is i decieving myself..i haven got to put down yet..tt time on fri i saw him at fc6..he was concentrating to do his work..i went blank..i donno wat to do..to say a hi or leave..i very scare to c him like eye to eye..i realli donno how..i tt time left in a rush without looking back..i really don dare to look at him..after tt i tnk i shld learn to face him n say hi..since i alrdy put it down why still cnt face him..den tt time i decide whn i c him again i will say hi to him..but on last fri saw him at fc2 in formal wear..he was happily chattin wif his grp of frienz..he din c mi..i tt time walk away quickly wif xiao tian..but i still dont dare to face him..e stupid thing i do is to look at him bhind a wall..arghh..also donno why i behave like tt..i tt time felt scare n sad..ashidah ask mi y i felt sad...actualli i not sure why i felt sad..tt dae is my last paper..my brain went blank cnt get anything in it..haiz..i also wanna to sort out wat i realli feel..i alrdy put down then i suspose wont feel anything ar..am i realli avoidin..cnt face the fact??

Do i still luv him??Yes
Do i hope everything to gone back to e time we together??Yes..sometime realli hope cn turn back so i will learn to cherish it b4 it hav gone..but sometime realli hope tt time could turn back till e time we not know each other..so both of us wont suffer so much..
Do i wanna to be with him??Not sure
Why not sure?? coz i don realli know wat will be look like in e future..don realli cn c future
everitime i not being true to myself..tend to say e opposite way..
i realli not suitable for him..his a nice guy whn he still love u..
who will wanna to be wif a unreasonable, family first,friend second, love animals than human, bhave like guy, loudspeaker "gal",not pretty n cute..
ya still got guy will look on me..but i really don dare to face it..
but if i found out he alrdy gt a gf..i tt time tnk will go wif e one who love mi..this is only way n faster way to 4get sumone..or juz let e time heal it..now alrdy half a year..sumtime i felt i realli recover from it le..but whn e moment saw him..everithing come back to my mind again..